Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Playlist 2

So I wanted to share some more of my playlist for those of you who are like me and must have music!

Beauty and a Beat (featuring Nicki Minaj)-Justin Bieber
Black Heart-Stooshe
Blow Me (One Last Kiss)-Pink
Blown Away-Carrie Underwood
Demons-Imagine Dragons
Heart Attack-Demi Lovato
I Love It-Icona Pop
If I Could Turn Back Time-Cher
Not Afraid-Eminem
My Songs Know What You Did in the Dark (Light Em Up)-Fall Out Boy
Acapella-Karmin
People Like Us-Kelly Clarkson
Run Away-Real McCoy
Blurred Lines-Robin Thicke (featuring T.I. and Pharrell)

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Running for Me

So in the past many days I've felt really out of touch with things...felt very unmotivated and in general, pretty yucky...I've been beating myself up about my weigh in, which to be honest, was me reaching my highest weight ever at 238 pounds.  Yup, I said it.  I've been sticking to my WW plan pretty intensely the last week, though supper in the last two days hasn't been great.  I'll weigh myself tomorrow and hopefully will feel much better.

I did head to the gym tonight to do my run (I've been doing outdoor running for the last couple of weeks) and finally was able to complete my first round of the Week 4 training successfully.  In total, I did 16 minutes of running, something in my whole life I've never been able to do.  I'm proud of myself.  I didn't really enjoy the gym experience-people were blaring their music as loud as they could and were goofing off.  I'm really starting to believe that this fall, I'll buy my own treadmill.

So my marathon that I signed up, well, I came up with an idea tonight.  I have a birthday coming up in October, before the marathon.  I've decided to ask for donations for my marathon in lieu of gifts.  This marathon means a lot to me as I'm running in memory of my grandfather.  At the same time, I'm also running for myself.  I'm not sure what I've shared before in previous posts, but I have issues with hypertension, and have since I was 18.  I've been big and I've also been 180 pounds with same high blood pressure.  I've been on medication for years (various meds as one particular med stopped working) and have had 2 EKG's to check if there's been damage to my heart.  Luckily there hasn't been, but as much as I pretend that hypertension doesn't bother me (emotionally), it does.  While I'm under control now, I don't know the future. The Canadian Heart and Stroke Foundation, well, their research helps people like me.  So as much as I plan to run in memory of my grandfather, I'm running for me too.

Tonight on the treadmill, I really felt like my goal was in reach.  I've never run 16 minutes before.  

Thursday, July 18, 2013

Frustrations With Weight

So I am feeling very frustrated.  In the last month, my weight has gone up 9 pounds. I've been more active than ever and my weight goes way up. I'm still the same size but I'm up!!

I've struggled with my weight for years. I can gain weight in a blink of an eye and losing is very hard for me. I have lost weight and had success with Weight Watchers before, but only through the meetings and not really the online version. I found the meetings gave me a lot of support where the online version doesn't give you the support or sermons.

Right now I can't do the meetings as the closest meetings are an hour and a half away and I cannot afford the gas. The online version I was doing but I'm prepared to pull the plug on that as in some ways, I feel I'm just wasting money. I do need to get rid of the Coke.  I'm probably drinking on average two cans a day. I had given up Diet Coke and then went to Coke.  Sigh.

I'm going to continue my exercise obviously and once I finish my case of Coke, well that's it. No more.   I need to up my water and I know I need to eat more veggies and fruits. I'm definitely not eating enough of those.  But in general, the weight gain really sucks. 

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Best Run Yet!

So tonight, I went at it again...trying to get the complete workout that I've been working at for the last two weeks, and tonight, a complete success!  I did it!  My run consisted of:
  • 5 minute warm up of brisk walking
  • 1 1/2 minutes running
  • 1 1/2 minutes walking
  • 3 minutes running
  • 3 minutes walking
  • 1 1/2 minutes running
  • 1 1/2 minutes walking
  • 3 minutes running
  • 5 minute cool down of brisk walking
No foxes, but a beautiful evening getting to smell canola in the air.  It really was lovely!

I also went for a drive last night and picked up a couple of running magazines.  I never thought in a million years that I would be buying a running magazine, let alone 2 running magazines.  I bought this one:


and then this one:


I really liked both.  I loved the Canadian one simply for being Canadian-stories about Canadians which I always find more relatable.  It's like hey, if someone could do that much running in Saskatchewan, I can do that in Manitoba!  Silly, I know, but it works for me.  What I really liked about women's running is that it had a great section on running in the heat and showcased products that got me thinking I could use that.  I will definitely be buying these in the future and in the meantime, I can go back and read the tips they offer!


Sunday, July 14, 2013

Playlist

So tonight, I was feeling really sad.  Sad enough to break down crying, though I didn't.  I decided to still run, thinking let's take this negative energy and turn it into something positive.  Well, the first half of the run went really well.  I made it quite a bit past my normal place where I have to turn around and that was a great feeling.  But then, my run kind of broke down.  It was like my heart and head refused to cooperate any more and I just couldn't.  I walked the rest of the way back.  I wish I could say that after the exercise I felt better, but I didn't.  I need to process what I'm feeling and rather than talking about that here, I'm going to leave you with some of my workout playlist that I run to.

In no particular order, as it's always shuffled...

Don't You Worry Child-Swedish Mafia
International Love-Pitbull Featuring Chris Brown
It's Time-Imagine Dragons
Judas-Lady Gaga
Moves like Jagger-Maroon 5
Pause-Pitbull
Radioactive-Rita Ora
Scream and Shout-Will I Am with Brittney Spears
Starships-Nicki Minaj
Titanium-David Guetta featuring Sia
Turn Me On-David Guetta featuring Nicki Minaj
Part of Me-Katy Perry
Glad You Came-The Wanted
This is What It Feels Like-Armin van Buuren featuring Trevor Guthrie
Get Lucky-Daft Punk featuring Pharrell Williams

Hope it's given you a few ideas for your own playlist...


Saturday, July 13, 2013

Running with Foxes

So I sort of ran into a road block with my training and I'm not sure if it was from the heat or my mind throwing up roadblocks, but I found the 3rd week of training (according to the plan I'm following) really difficult.  So difficult, that I decided to redo it as I had to keep stopping in that week of training.

Last night I started the week again, and finally success!  I did the run properly despite my music going all wonky and constantly skipping.  The best part of the run, which was outside by the way, was getting to see two foxes.  As I was running out of town, one ran across the road.  I did wonder as I passed if it was going to run back out at me, and then just as I was coming up, a second appeared.  It saw me and turned around.

I think I actually enjoy running outside better than on the treadmill.  Not only do I get the chance to see foxes, but having something to stare at and use road markers as goals to pass in some ways makes it seem easier.

The couple of times that I've run outside, I tend to do it late at night.  I don't want anyone to see me, though truth is that I still get passed by a lot of vehicles.  Maybe I'm scared of being judged of things jiggling or being too slow, but in part, by running, I'm prooving to myself that I can do anything and to heck what other people think.

Friday, July 5, 2013

Running in the Heat

So I'm coming up on two weeks of training now...The past three times it's been difficult, but tonight was really difficult...it's the heat :)

I work out on the treadmill at a town owned facility that is brand new.  Yes, they have air conditioning, but it's not very cool.  I left a note asking if there was any way they could either turn up the AC or maybe provide a couple of fans....this is the message that I got.

So believe it or not, I started to bring my own fan.  I might look crazy, but I don't care.  Today, when I went, there was this on the board:


And as you can see I now have support!  Yay!!  Now I know I'm a big girl and of course extra fat is probably going to make me a bit warmer than most, but these past couple of times, it's been about me being close to passing out.  

I'm not sure what the answer is but I need to keep going...maybe I actually need to try running outside when it's a lot cooler in the evening....but regardless, I have to keep going...

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Sore Abs and Eating

So as my sore abs have started, I've noticed something else.  My need for food has gone down.  I'm not sure if this is normal or what, but I am eating less.  I also ate a bag of chips (say a bad habit from the old days) and it made me feel sick...right now I haven't really focused on my eating other than to try to up my protein because of the running.  My body feels a lot better when I eat healthy food that sustains me and not the greasy, processed food....

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

3rd Training and Get Running App

So I'm now using an app on my smartphone to help me with my running.  It's called Get Running, and I believe I paid a couple dollars for it.  It starts you off each week with a set of goals and builds you up as you go along.  I skipped a couple of weeks due to the training I started before, and so far, so good.

What I like about it is that not only can you play your own playlists, but it has great audio reminders when to move on so you really don't need to look at your cell all that much.

One major surprise to me though with the running is how sore my abs have been...silly me, not thinking that my abs would be strengthened, but they hurt!  I've done sit ups before and everything, but nothing like this.  Apparently, I'm building a stronger core and I'm told by a friend of mine who does run, that it's a sign that I'm doing things right.  

Turning My Can'ts Into I Can's!

So I've had a lot going on in the last month...end of school year demands, getting sick, and then a break up which really sucked...I have felt a little discouraged, very tired, and quite burnt out.

Nearly a week ago though I came up with an idea that while pursueing, is quite scary. I want to do a 5K marathon. I got the idea and then I happened to find the marathon which really solidified things for me. This marathon raises money for the Canadian Heart and Stroke Foundation, which is really close to my heart. I lost my grandfather to heart issues and I myself have been dealing with high blood pressure since I was 18. I've decided that I am going to run, and I'm going to do it in memory of my grandfather...

So I started training...did my first one the other day...wasn't as hard as I expected but also not easy. I went into the gym with a plan of how to begin running, only to find out that plan was not doable for me. I'm not a runner and I wouldn't even consider myself athletic really. I'm a little lazy to consider myelf an athlete...Found out quickly that I had to do what was right for me and what my body could do. From a 30 minute workout, i did 10 minutes of running at 3.5 and 20 minutes of speed walking at 3.0 or 3.2. I did intervals to keep my body going.

I do have worries...I worry that I'll get hurt, that my ankles can't do it (I have extremely bad ankles, and have quite a bit of pain in the one already) but I am determined to do this. I need to do this for myself to proove to myself that I can do something that I never thought I could before. I need to turn my can't's into I can's....I will do this, at my own pace and my own speed, but this is doable!