So a couple weeks ago I had a major emotional setback...a vacation that I had planned for many months and invested a lot of money in, fell apart. Not only did I lose most of my money but the idea of losing something that I had wanted so badly was very overwhelming. While I am at peace with it, I have been struggling to be strong. It's hard to regain joy back when you've felt like you've been stripped of everything you had hoped for. I've tried running a couple of times and it's like each time my mind says enough and I end up having to stop...
I did end up buying a used treadmill though I'm not so sure if I'm in love with it...I'm having issues with the incline (as you set it by adjustable feet)...so while I don't blame that, I do wonder if it maybe it's a little bit at fault. I need to try to get back outside and try running....see how it goes then....
I happened to be at a gathering which my family hosted and mentioned that I bought a treadmill...someone close to me said well, it's not like your ever going to use that/see results from that...surpisingly, it didn't bother me....ususally, it's like a dagger to my heart and something I have heard my whole life. This time it was like, okay, just another example of me having to push forward through everything that says it's impossible for me to lose weight, get healthy...I am so used to people not believing in me but I can't live my life caring what other people think about me.
So, tomorrow, I'm going to try running outside...I do love running outside amidst the birds and the sounds of the frogs and running between canola fields along the highway...
I did end up buying a used treadmill though I'm not so sure if I'm in love with it...I'm having issues with the incline (as you set it by adjustable feet)...so while I don't blame that, I do wonder if it maybe it's a little bit at fault. I need to try to get back outside and try running....see how it goes then....
I happened to be at a gathering which my family hosted and mentioned that I bought a treadmill...someone close to me said well, it's not like your ever going to use that/see results from that...surpisingly, it didn't bother me....ususally, it's like a dagger to my heart and something I have heard my whole life. This time it was like, okay, just another example of me having to push forward through everything that says it's impossible for me to lose weight, get healthy...I am so used to people not believing in me but I can't live my life caring what other people think about me.
So, tomorrow, I'm going to try running outside...I do love running outside amidst the birds and the sounds of the frogs and running between canola fields along the highway...
